Prayers to Ma Sita

 

1. Jaya jaya Giribararaaja kishori/
jaya mahesha mukha chanda chakori
Jaya gajabadana khadaanana maataa/
jagata janani daamini duti gaataa

Glory to you O Daughter of the Mountain
Who looks upon Lord Shiva as a partridge on the moon.
Ganesh and Kartikeya are not your only children,
For you are the shining Mother of all of the creation.

2. Nahin taba aadi madya awasana/
amita prabaau bedu nahin jaana
Bhava bhava bibhava paraabhava kaarini/
bishwa bimohani swabasa bihaarini

You have always been and will exist for eternity
Even the Vedas cannot fathom your depths completely
You are the cause of all existence and its final dissolution
You are the Ultimate enticer, playing with all creation

3. Sewata tohi sulabha phala chaari/
baradaayanee tripuraari piyaaree
Devi pooji pada kamala tumhaare/
sura nara muni saba hohin sukhaare

O Grantor of all wishes, divine partner of the Lord
Serving you leads us to life’s greatest rewards
O Devi, gods, humans, and sages are bow at your lotus feet
And in doing so they easily gain all that they truly seek

4. Mora manoratha jaanahun neeken/
basahu sadaa ura pura sabahee ken
Keenhe-un pragata na kaarana teheen/
asa kahi charana gahe baidehin

You know the deepest desires that reside in my heart
Because within that abode we are never ever apart
It is because of this that I never spoke my thoughts
Saying so, the divine Sita bowed to her sacred feet

5. Vinaya prema basa bha-i Bhavaanee/
khasi maala murati musukaanee
Saadara siyan prasaadu sira dhareu/
bolee Gauri harashu hiyan bhare-u

In Sita’s love and devotion, the Goddess was absorbed
Then she dropped a flower lei as her image sweetly smiled
Sita took the gift and placed it around her neck
Parvati’s hearted filled with joy and happiness, she spoke:

6. Sunu siya satya aseesa hamaari/
puji hi mana kaamanaa tumhaaree
Naarada bachana sadaa suchi saachaa/
so baru milihi jaahin manu raachaa

“Hey Sita, listen to my blessing and then be assured
Your deep inner desire will surely be fulfilled
The words spoken by Narada are always pure and true
He whom you desire will become your husband

 





































      




 




 









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Sita’s Prayer / Hey Mata Durga

1. Jaya jaya Giribararaaja kishori/
jaya mahesha mukha chanda chakori
Jaya gajabadana khadaanana maataa/
jagata janani daamini duti gaataa

Glory to you O Daughter of the Mountain
Who looks upon Lord Shiva as a partridge on the moon.
Ganesh and Kartikeya are not your only children,
For you are the shining Mother of all of the creation.

2. Nahin taba aadi madya awasana/
amita prabaau bedu nahin jaana
Bhava bhava bibhava paraabhava kaarini/
bishwa bimohani swabasa bihaarini

You have always been and will exist for eternity
Even the Vedas cannot fathom your depths completely
You are the cause of all existence and its final dissolution
You are the Ultimate enticer, playing with all creation

3. Sewata tohi sulabha phala chaari/
baradaayanee tripuraari piyaaree
Devi pooji pada kamala tumhaare/
sura nara muni saba hohin sukhaare

O Grantor of all wishes, divine partner of the Lord
Serving you leads us to life’s greatest rewards
O Devi, gods, humans, and sages are bow at your lotus feet
And in doing so they easily gain all that they truly seek

4. Mora manoratha jaanahun neeken/
basahu sadaa ura pura sabahee ken
Keenhe-un pragata na kaarana teheen/
asa kahi charana gahe baidehin

You know the deepest desires that reside in my heart
Because within that abode we are never ever apart
It is because of this that I never spoke my thoughts
Saying so, the divine Sita bowed to her sacred feet

5. Vinaya prema basa bha-i Bhavaanee/
khasi maala murati musukaanee
Saadara siyan prasaadu sira dhareu/
bolee Gauri harashu hiyan bhare-u

In Sita’s love and devotion, the Goddess was absorbed
Then she dropped a flower lei as her image sweetly smiled
Sita took the gift and placed it around her neck
Parvati’s hearted filled with joy and happiness, she spoke:

6. Sunu siya satya aseesa hamaari/
puji hi mana kaamanaa tumhaaree
Naarada bachana sadaa suchi saachaa/
so baru milihi jaahin manu raachaa

“Hey Sita, listen to my blessing and then be assured
Your deep inner desire will surely be fulfilled
The words spoken by Narada are always pure and true
He whom you desire will become your husband

 





































      




 




 

Shri Ram Vandana

Aapadaam Aphartaaram Daataaram Sarv Sampadaam|
Lok Abhiraamam Shri Raamam Bhooyo-Bhooyo Namaamyaham||

Who removes all types of adversity and agony of Jiva (living beings); Who bestows all types of favour, honour and wealth; By looking at whom, the world feel very pleased; to that Shri Rama, I bow again and again.

2. Raamaay Raambhadraay Raamchandraay Maanase|
Raghunaathaay Naathaay Seethayaah Pataye Namah||

My salutations to Lord Rama; To Shri Ramabadhra, To Shri Ramachandra, To the lord of Vedas, To the chief of Raghu clan, To the lord of all worlds, And to the Lord of Sit?.

3. Neelaambuj Shyaamal Komalaangam
Sita Samaro Pitvaam Bhaagam
Paanau Mahaasaayak Chaaru chaapam
Namaami Raamam Raghuvansh Naatham||

Who has complexion and softness like that of a blue lotus, whose body parts are very soft; On whose left side resides his dear consort Sita; Who has a divine arrow and a beautiful bow in His hands, I pray to that Shri Rama who is the Lord of Raghu dynasty.

Individuality

The Kali Yuga

 

Thieves will become kings, and kings will be the thieves.

Rulers will confiscate property and use it badly. They will cease to protect the people.

Base men who have gained a certain amount of learning (without having the virtues necessary for its use) will be esteemed as sages.

There will be many displaced persons, wandering from one country to another.

Predatory animals will be more violent.
Fetuses will be killed in the wombs of their mothers.

People will prefer to choose false ideas.

No one will be able to trust anyone else.
People will be envious.

There will be many children born whose life expectancy is no more than 16 years.

People suffering from hunger and fear will take refuge in underground shelters.

Young girls will do trade in their virginity.

The god of clouds will be inconsistent in the distribution of the rains.

Shopkeepers will run dishonest businesses.

There will be many beggars and unemployed people.

Everyone will use hard and vulgar language.

Men will devote themselves to earning money; the richest will hold power.

The state leaders will no longer protect the people but, through taxes, will appropriate all wealth.

Water will be lacking.
Pre-cooked food will be readily available.
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This Kali Yuga spans for a long time period of 432,000 years, although multiple other durations have been proposed by many.
Human civilization degenerates spiritually during the Kali Yuga,which is referred to as the Dark Age because in it people are as far away as possible from God.
Ancient Vedic religion often symbolically represents dharma as a bull.
In Satya Yuga, the first stage of development, the bull has four legs, but in each age dharma is reduced by one quarter.
By the age of Kali, dharma is reduced to only a quarter of that of the golden age, so that the bull of Dharma has only one leg now.
Major differences of Karma and Dharma in each Yuga.
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Spring

Jayaparittam

The Lord greatly compassionate for the welfare of all living beings
Having fulfilled all the perfections attained by himself the highest Bodhi: by the speaking of this truth, may you be blessed with victory.

Victorious at the Bodhi-tree root.

He who increased delight for the Sakyans, thus may victory be yours
May you win the blessing of victory. In the undefeated posture upon
The exalted holy place having the consecration of all the Buddhas
He rejoices in the best attainment. A good time, an auspicious time, a good dawn, a good morning, a good instant, a good moment (when) well-given (are things) to brahmacaris, (when) bodily kamma is righteous, and righteousness is verbal kamma. (when) mental kamma is righteous, righteousness are their aspirations. These righteousness having been done one gains the goal of righteousness.

May all the blessings accrue. May all devas protect you. By the glory of all Buddhas may security ever be yours!

May all blessings accrue. May all devas protect you. By the glory of all Truth’s Laws may security ever be yours!

May all blessings accrue. May all devas protect you. By the glory of all Saintly Di

Prayer

Dear God,

You are God, and I’m not. You sent Jesus to be my Savior, so I must need to be saved. I need you to forgive the things I’ve done wrong in life. I need you to give me a fresh start in life. I need you to help me know my purpose. I want to begin a relationship with you. I ask you to come into my life. I want to learn to trust you. I want to learn to love you. I want to learn to love other people the way you want me to. So I ask you today with humility and honesty and sincerity to please save me as I put my trust in you.

I pray this prayer in Jesus’ Name. Amen

Prayer for Grieving

Lord God above, we, Your humble children kneel before you today in reverence. We know You’re the greatest and You’re the king of all kings. So, we pray You uplift our heart and soul so that we may cast away our sorrows oh Lord. Give us the strength to surpass this situation. No one dies without Your say-so and thus, we rejoice over this triumph and we pray You be with our deceased brother/sister. We thank you for the answered prayer and in Jesus name, Amen.

ഇച്ചീച്ചി* by dharmaraj madapally

ഞായറാഴ്ചയായിരുന്നു.
അച്ഛനുമമ്മയും
പണിക്കുപോയൊരു
ദിവസത്തിന്റെ
നടുപൊള്ളുന്ന
നട്ടുച്ചയായിരുന്നു.
തൊടിയിലെ വാഴക്കൂട്ടങ്ങൾക്കുചുവട്ടിൽ
ഏട്ടത്തിയെ കുഴിച്ചിട്ട
മൺകൂനയിൽ
കണ്ണുനട്ട്
ഉമ്മറത്തിരിക്കുകയായിരുന്നു.

അച്ഛനുമമ്മയും
പണിക്കുപോകുന്ന
ഞായറാഴ്ചകളിൽ
ഏട്ടത്തിക്കൊപ്പം
മുറ്റത്തു
കളിച്ചുകൊണ്ടിരിക്കുമ്പോളാണ്
ആദ്യമായി *അവർ* വന്നത്.

"മിഠായി വാങ്ങി വന്നോളൂ"
എന്നു പറഞ്ഞ് അവർ
കവിളിലുമ്മവെച്ചിരുന്നു.
ഉമ്മ തീരും മുന്നേ
അന്നു ഞാൻ കടയിലേക്കോടിയിരുന്നു.
തിരിച്ചു വന്നേരം
ചായ്പ്പിലെ പുല്ലുപായയിൽ
കമിഴ്ന്നു കിടന്നു കരഞ്ഞ ഏട്ടത്തിയുടെ
ഇച്ചീച്ചിയിലൂടെ ചോരയൊലിക്കുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നു.

എന്തിനാണു കരയുന്നതെന്നു
പലതവണ ചോദിച്ചിട്ടും
ഏടത്തിയൊന്നും പറയാതെ ഉച്ചത്തിലുച്ചത്തിൽ
കരഞ്ഞുകൊണ്ടേയിരുന്നു.
അങ്ങിനെയാണ്
ഞാൻ ചോദ്യങ്ങൾ
നിറുത്തിയത്.

ഞായറാഴ്ചകൾ
മാത്രമല്ല
പിന്നീട് ശനിയാഴ്ചകൾക്കും
നട്ടുച്ചകളുണ്ടായി.
തിങ്കളിനും
ചൊവ്വക്കും
ബുധനും
വ്യാഴത്തിനുമൊക്കെ
രാത്രികളുമുണ്ടായി.

രാത്രികളുടെ
ഓടാമ്പലുകൾ നീക്കി,
ഏടത്തി എന്നേയും കടന്ന് മഞ്ഞിലേക്കും
മഴയിലേക്കും പോയി.

തിരിച്ചുവന്ന്
അതേ
കമിഴ്ന്നു കിടപ്പും കരച്ചിലും...
ഇച്ചീച്ചിയിലെ
ചോരയും,

പിന്നെപ്പിന്നെ
ചോര വരാതായി...
കരച്ചിലു വരാതായി..

അമ്മയുമച്ഛനും എല്ലാ
ഞായറാഴ്ചകളിലും പണിക്കുപോയി.

തിരിച്ചു വരുമ്പോൾ
അവർ കൈനിറയേ
കപ്പയും മീനും
കൊണ്ടു വന്നു.
നല്ല വീടുണ്ടാക്കാനുള്ള
ആശകളും കൊണ്ടു വന്നു.

കുളിക്കുമ്പോൾ
അമ്മ ഇടക്കെന്നെ വിളിക്കും.
പുറത്തെ ചേറ് ഉരച്ചു കഴുകിക്കൊടുക്കാൻ.
ഇത്രയും ചേറെവിടുന്നാണമ്മേ
എന്നു ഞാൻ ചോദിക്കും.
അമ്മ ദീർഘമായൊരു നിശ്വാസം വിടും.

ശനിയാഴ്ചക്കു ശേഷം
ഞായറാഴ്ച വന്നു.

ഞങ്ങളിപ്പോൾ
പണ്ടത്തേപ്പോലെ
കളിക്കാറില്ല.
ഏട്ടത്തി
ഒന്നും പറയാറില്ല.

നട്ടുച്ചക്ക് *അവർ* വന്നു.
അതിലൊരാളെന്നെ
ഉമ്മവെച്ചു.
അച്ചനുമമ്മയും വെക്കുന്ന തരത്തിലുള്ള
ഉമ്മയായിരുന്നില്ല അത്.

ഏട്ടത്തി ഓടിവന്ന് അയാളേ പിടിച്ചുവലിച്ചു.
മറ്റൊരാൾ ഏട്ടത്തിക്ക്
രണ്ടു രൂപ കൊടുത്ത്
മിഠായി വാങ്ങിവരാൻ പറഞ്ഞു.
ഞാനല്ലെ എന്നും മിഠായി വാങ്ങിവന്നിരുന്നതെന്ന്
പറയാൻ തുടങ്ങുമ്പോളേക്കും
എന്റെ ചുണ്ടുകൾ
അയാളുടെ
പല്ലുകൾക്കിടയിലായി.

അയാളത് കടിച്ചുപൊട്ടിച്ചു.
എനിക്ക് നീറ്റി.

മറ്റൊരാൾ ഏട്ടത്തിയൊടെന്തോ പറഞ്ഞു.
അവൾ രണ്ടു രൂപയുമായി മുഖം കുനിച്ച് പുറത്തേക്കു പോയി.

മുറ്റത്തെ കൃഷ്ണതുളസിക്കടുത്തു വെച്ച് അവളെന്നെ *തിരിഞ്ഞു നോക്കി.*

അതിലൊരാൾ
ഏട്ടത്തിയെ വഴക്കു പറഞ്ഞു.
അവൾ മുഖം താഴ്ത്തി ഇറങ്ങിപ്പോയി.

അവരെന്നെ ചായ്പിലേക്കു കൊണ്ടുപോയി.

കുഞ്ഞു പാവാട
വലിച്ചഴിച്ചഴിക്കെ
കുടുക്കു പൊട്ടിയപ്പോളെനിക്ക്
കരച്ചിലു വന്നു.
കരഞ്ഞപ്പോൾ
അവരെന്നെ അടിച്ചു.

ഉടുതുണിയില്ലാതെ എനിക്കുമേലൊരാൾ
കിടന്നപ്പോൾ
എന്റെ ഇച്ചീച്ചി പൊള്ളി.
അമ്മേയെന്നുച്ചത്തിൽ കരഞ്ഞപ്പോൾ
*ഒച്ചവെച്ചാൽ കൊന്നുകളയുമെന്നവർ* പറഞ്ഞു.
അന്നു മുതലാണ്
എന്റെ
കരച്ചിലിന്
ഒച്ചയില്ലാതായത്.

കടയിൽ നിന്നുവന്ന
ഏട്ടത്തിയെ അതിലൊരാൾ
അകത്തേക്കു കൂട്ടിക്കൊണ്ടുപോയി.
അവളുടെ കയ്യിലെ
കടലമിഠായി ഉമ്മറക്കോലായയിൽ വീണു.

അമ്മയുമച്ഛനും
കയറിവന്ന
വൈകുന്നേരത്തിന്റെ
ഉമ്മറത്ത്
ചോരയൊലിക്കുന്ന
രണ്ട് ഇച്ചീച്ചികളായി
ഞങ്ങളിരുന്നു.

പിറ്റേന്ന് പള്ളിക്കൂടത്തിലെ
മൂത്രപ്പുരയിൽ
ശൂശുവെക്കാൻ നേരം
പതിവില്ലാതെ
ഏട്ടത്തിയും കൂടെ വന്നു.
ഇച്ചീച്ചി വല്ലാതെ നീറ്റിയപ്പോൾ
ഏട്ടത്തിയെന്റെ
പുറം തലോടി.
അമ്മയേക്കാളുമാഴത്തിൽ
ഉമ്മവച്ചു.
ഏട്ടത്തി
കരഞ്ഞില്ല.


ഞായർ
തിങ്കൾ
ചൊവ്വ
ബുധൻ
എന്നിങ്ങനെ
പല ടൈം ടേബിളുകൾ.

കടലമിഠായിക്കു തന്നിരുന്ന
രണ്ടു രൂപ
ചുരുങ്ങി നാരങ്ങാമിഠായിയിലെത്തി.
വിയർപ്പിൽ കുതിർന്ന
നാരങ്ങാമിഠായി കൈവെള്ളയിൽ
ചുവന്ന ചായമടിച്ച്
മധുരിച്ചൊരു നട്ടുച്ചക്ക്
ഏട്ടത്തി,
*അമ്മയുടെ സാരിത്തുഞ്ചത്ത് ചായ്പ്പിലെ കഴുക്കോലിലാടി*
അവളുടെ ഇച്ചീച്ചി തോർന്നിറ്റിയ
ഇത്തിരി മൂത്രം
നിലത്തു പുള്ളികുത്തി.

പോലീസു വന്നാണഴിച്ചു കിടത്തിയത്.
അമ്മ ബോധംകെട്ടു വീണു.
അച്ഛൻ *നിശബ്ദനായി*
തൂമ്പ ചാരിവെച്ചതുപോലെ
മുറ്റത്തേക്കോണിലിരുന്നു.
ഓടിക്കൂടിയ ആൾക്കൂട്ടത്തിലും *അവരുണ്ടായിരുന്നു.*
പോസ്റ്റുമോർട്ടം കഴിഞ്ഞെത്തിയ
ഏട്ടത്തിയുടെ
തലക്കൽ
ചന്ദനത്തിരി കുത്തിനിർത്തിയത്
*അവരിലൊരാളായിരുന്നു.*
കുഴിയെടുത്തതും
പന്തലുകെട്ടിയതും
*അവർതന്നേയായിരുന്നു.*

പന്തലഴിച്ചു.
അമ്മയുമച്ചനും
പണിക്കുപോയി.
ശനിയും
ഞായറും
പിന്നേയുമുണ്ടായി.
തിങ്കളിനും
ചൊവ്വക്കും
രാത്രികളുണ്ടായി.
ബുധനും
വ്യാഴത്തിനും
പാതിരകളുണ്ടായി.

ഞായറാഴ്ചയായിരുന്നു.
അച്ഛനുമമ്മയും
പണിക്കുപോയൊരു
ദിവസത്തിന്റെ
നടുപൊള്ളുന്ന
നട്ടുച്ചയായിരുന്നു.
*തൊടിയിലെ വാഴക്കൂട്ടങ്ങൾക്കുചുവട്ടിൽ ഏട്ടത്തിയെ കുഴിച്ചിട്ട മൺകൂനയിൽ കണ്ണുനട്ട് ഉമ്മറത്തിരിക്കുകയായിരുന്നു.*

*അവർ* വന്നു.
അയയിലാറിയിട്ട
അമ്മയുടെ സാരിയുമെടുത്ത്
അവർ ഉമ്മറത്തു കയറി.
കഴുത്തിൽ കുരുക്കു മുറുക്കുമ്പോൾ
അതിലൊരാൾ
പറഞ്ഞു.
എനിക്കൊന്നൂടെ വേണം.
കുരുക്ക് ഊരി
അവരെന്നെ
നിലത്തുകിടത്തി.
ഒന്നാമൻ
രണ്ടാമൻ
മൂന്നാമൻ...

ഇച്ചീച്ചി നീറിനീറീ
ഞാനൊന്നു പിടച്ചു.
കഴുത്തിൽ സാരിക്കുരുക്കിട്ട്
അതേ കഴുക്കോലിൽ
ഇച്ചിച്ചി തോർന്ന്
കാലിലൂടെ
മൂത്രമൊഴുകുന്നത്
ഞാനറിഞ്ഞു.
കഴുത്തിനു താഴെ
ഒന്നുമില്ലാത്തതുപോലെ...
പിന്നേ കഴുത്തിനു മീതേയും ഒന്നുമില്ലാത്തതുപോലെ...

മരിച്ചവർ എല്ലാം കാണുന്നു.
*തലക്കൽ ചന്ദനത്തിരി കുത്തിവെക്കാൻ ഇക്കുറിയുമവർ വന്നു. തെക്കേത്തൊടിയിലെ ഏട്ടത്തിക്കരികിൽ കുഴിവെട്ടിയതുമവർതന്നെ. അച്ഛനെ ആശ്വസിപ്പിച്ചതും അമ്മയെ ആവശ്യത്തിലുമേറെ ചേർത്തു പിടിച്ചതുമവരുതന്നേ...*

അമ്മേ...
ഇച്ചീച്ചിയിലൂടെ
വന്നുതുകൊണ്ടാവുമോ
നമ്മളൊക്കെ ഇത്രക്ക്
ഇച്ചീച്ചിയായിപ്പോയത്?

Varshaa: Rain Melodies

In one of his stories, the celebrated Malayalam writer T. Padmanabhan writes of a man who loves to listen to the sounds of rain so much that he takes a cassette of rain-sounds with him abroad. When he feels homesick, he listens to the sounds of rain- the sudden outburst, the pitter patter of rain on the roof, on the ground and to the sounds of occasional thunderbolts. The rain has always held a fascination for artists and is a constantly celebrated theme in Indian literature and films. 

The theme of the rain is explored by the artists Jason J.Nair and Aby in Varshaa: Rain Melodies, a collection of five rain melodies that inspire both creativity and nostalgia. Though it bursts on you unawares and creates plenty of inconvenience, the rain serves as a muse or a source of inspiration for many writers and artistes. The rain pitter-pattering outside, the sound of thunderbolts flashes of thunder across the sky, the wait for the rains symbolised by the dance of the peacocks or the memories of getting drenched unexpectedly, there are so many threads that come together on listening to these rain melodies.

The Scribbled Stories

Though one comes across so many different kinds of writing on Facebook, one cannot possibly like them all because of various reasons- differences in taste, poor narrative style, even content that is unappealing or unsuitable to your age-group. But, something that I read breathlessly from beginning till end are the posts from The Scribbled Stories.

Reading The Scribbled Stories feels like reading a love letter that is so exciting that you read it again and again. They are so candid and thoughtful as it talks directly about lost love or friendship. For me, it brings before the eyes memories of college days, where one used to look forward to days of friendship and laughter.

Metamorphosis

The butterfly develops through a process of transformation called the metamorphosis. It undergoes change from egg, to larva, to pupa and finally to a fully grown adult butterfly. 

The human soul or psyche is often compared to a butterfly. Just like the metamorphosis of a butterfly, the soul needs time for solitude so that it learns to connect with the spirit of the Universe and to imbibe lessons of wisdom, self-knowledge, humility and healing.

❤Have a nice day❤

Twin flame connection

Kindness

World Environment Day

31st October 1819: An Excerpt from the Diary of John Keats

31^st October 1819

It must be three hours past midnight and though I have been trying hard to sleep, I am wide awake as I am so excited and so possessed by a writing spree that I decided to get up from my bed and write by the light of this burning candle. For today is no ordinary day but my twenty fourth birthday and I find that I am too tired to write yet too excited to sleep. I have no other option but to get up from my bed and pour my thoughts into the blank sheets of paper before me. This has been my habit since my young days when I fell in love with the realms of imagination created by the pens of great writers such as Horace, Spenser, Dryden, Pope, Gray and Collins. I have tried my best to create a world of beauty like they have done though how much I have succeeded as a writer only my posterity can answer. For when this mortal body perishes and nothing will be left behind to say that such a spirit lived and died, my poetry would speak for me to the rest of the world.

I am too excited tonight that I cannot sleep a wink for my thoughts begin and end with my beautiful minx Fanny. Before I met her, I was just a plain young lad contented with solitude and the beauty of this natural world. The verses that I wrote extolled the virtues of a solitary life. However, the moment I saw her, my heart was seized with love and I experienced its beauty as sung by the poets. From the very first week at the house of Mr. Dilke, I realised to my surprise that my life was full of longing to be in her sweet presence and this foolish heart had become an absolute slave to her. Though she was stubborn and distant at first, later she became friendly with me when I discussed books with her. I love the way she wins arguments with me and her love is like opium to my miserable life.

For my life has always been a mixture of joys and sorrows with sorrows dominating the balance. I was miserable from an early age as my parents died quite early. The last year has been troublesome with Tom’s sickness and his untimely death. When I look back upon this last year, I think how Fanny has been a constant support to me through my personal troubles. If it were not or her, I would have died of grief! It was this last year that she turned from a beautiful minx to my only love and her sweet letters are on my table talking of her loyal love. For me, she is like a goddess, full of perfections and sweetness, to be remembered constantly as a source of loyalty and affection. Her presence in life helped me tide over the grief of Tom’s death and it inspired to compose some of the poems that I have scribbled this year. Sometimes, I wonder if I can whisk her away on a beautiful winter night like Porphyro does his Madeline and live with her till we turn old and bent.

I was reading Spenser last night and like always I want to write like him. His imagination is so powerful that he can paint pictures with words and I still remember my twenty second year when I first read him after borrowing Clarke’s copy of the Faerie Queen. I was just glancing through his copy, when I was struck by the loveliness of the diction and the images that went with it. I begged him to lend me his copy to read. That night, I was like a young horse that tasted the charms of a spring meadow. Just like the flower draws its nourishment from the soil that surrounds it, a good writer must be inspired by beautiful poetry.  When thinking of the art of poetry, one must draw inspiration from the works of great poets and create worlds of beauty where a stranger can inhabit with wonder. Writing poetry has to be natural; for one does not write for the sake of fame but because one is inspired to create a world of beauty through words. Every reader must create a beautiful world of his own so that one is guarded against the miseries of daily life that can turn the spirit weary.

It is much later that I became acquainted with the Greek epics through Chapman’s translation. Clarke recommended the book and I knew that I had to read it for his recommendations are always worthy of reading. My perspective of the world has never been the same since then as I have seen this world of delight from the ancient times. For me, the natural world is a land of comfort that can experienced through the five senses- touch, sight, hearing, smell and taste. This Earth that we inhabit is so full of mysteries and it beckons man to indulge in the pleasures that it offers. Its seasons are a delight -full of sights, smells and sounds that are inviting to me. I remember these gifts to the senses with pleasure, just like a night spent amid the intoxicating smells of flowering plants and try to recreate them with words when I sit down to write. Often, when I sit and dream, I recall the smells of ripening fruits in autumn or the glorious tints of the setting sun or the beautiful song of the nightingale and I am pleased that I have a power with words that I can bring these pictures alive to my readers as well. When I first started writing, I was just a lover of beauty but with time I have learnt that art needs to be about human sorrows and suffering too. Like a drop of water to the wearied traveller, poetry should offer solace to the humans worn out by the daily toils of life.

What worries me is whether I will live to realise my dreams as I have the same illness that my mother and Tom had. During my walks, I have been thinking seriously death. What if I were to die like my mother and Tom, sick with tuberculosis? Usually my thoughts are fully occupied by my lovely Fanny and the place she holds as a goddess in my religion of love. But in the last few days, I am preoccupied with the end of this life. How will that end come? I ask myself as my future stares me in my face and though I am fully conscious of the beauty of nature around me, my mind is beset with gloom as I wonder what will happen to Fanny!  For the last few days, I am feeling tired after a few minutes of exertion. From the signs of it, my hour of death approaches fast and I hope that I will remain brave till the last and not succumb to the despair that overpowers one when struck with the possibility of impending death. Will my words survive my death and live forever?

 

A Song

 

 

You are my favourite song that I sing day and night till I get tired of singing. You are my summer love of youth that come to me in snatches of songs and as pleasant memories though our love never got a happy ending like others did theirs. With you, it was always the silence that reigned as if we came from some primeval ocean full of ancient longings. You were the sun, the moon, the land, the ocean and all that this heart wanted to see around it.

It was as if we did not need words to speak of the magic that was between us, it was as if we have always known each other minutely and the much-needed words failed to come out though I tried hard when you were around with you. I wanted you to stay around with me always and it is your companionship that I craved throughout all the years.

What I remember is your mellow voice that spoke enthusiastically and warmly of things that moved you and the beautiful way words sounded when you spoke to me. Not that others do not speak enthusiastically or warmly or sweetly but this heart remembers you with fondness and exaggerates how you were, how you spoke and how you behaved. Now, eons later you have become a beautiful song that I know by heart and that might be sung a lifetime.

The Vagina Monologues

The Vagina Monologues by Eve Ensler is a celebration of female sexuality and contains around 200 anecdotes that were compiled by the author on sensitive topics such as sexual experiences, genital mutilation, pubic hair, menstruation, vaginal care, rape, sex and body image. When the book came out, people wanted to censor the term vagina and instead V monologues was used.The writer points out that vagina is a medical term and not a pornographic one yet most of the women use euphemistic terms when they want to speak about their vaginas. Ensler encourages women to say the word aloud as it will bring about freedom in speaking about their personal experiences that are too shameful for them to talk about including their desires and how they were violated or mutilated.

You suddenly realise all the shame and embarassment you've previously felt saying the word has been a form of silencing your desire, eroding your ambition...And as more women say the word, saying it becomes less of a big deal; it becomes part of our language, part of our lives, Our vaginas become integrated and respected and scared, They become part of our bodies, connected to our minds, fueling our spirits. And the shame leaves and the violation stops, because vaginas are visible and real, and they are connected to powerful, wise, vagina-talking women (Preface). 

 Ensler wrote as a celebration of female sexuality but the V-movement that became a worldwide phenomenon changed its aim to that of preventing violence against women. The book became an eye-opener for women who did not dare to speak openly about their sexuality. It celebrated a woman for her desires, her conditions, and her needs, and "did not classify her by class, religion, identity, or race" thereby threatening the silence demanded of women across various cultures. 

 

Energy

world turtle day

Happiness

Joy and Sorrow

Books

The heart

Present

prayer

Prayer to Shri Maha Devi Lakshmi

I bow to you, O Mother of All Worlds, O Lotus Born, O Four-Armed Giver of Boons. Gently floating on the Shatki Seas, sitting firmly on the Heart of Vishnu. O Maha Devi, sitting on a pink lotus, thank you for letting us see Your beauty, elegance, exquisiteness, perfection. Thank You for showering our soils with abundant rain, and for the millions of petals, flowers, fruits, seeds, nuts. Praised be you, Loving Devi, shimmering in golden adornments and wearing a splendid red silk gown. You are Shakti, Siddhi, Svadha, Svaha, Sudha. You are the purifier of this world. You are the evening, the night, the light, the darkness. You are Glory, ecstasy, joyfulness, intelligence, and devotion. You are Sarasvati. You are Maha Devi Lakshmi. You celebrate with us and You bring to us flowers, baskets of delicious food, a golden pot of coins, sacred plants, your beauty, your smile, the world as it is right now. You are the Knower of Great Truths, the Watcher of the Here and Now. O Auspicious One, you fathom the Secret Knowledge and are Supra-Insightful, Supra-Intuitive, Supra-Genius. You are the Science of the Self, O Devi, and you are the giver of the Fruit of Freedom (Mukti). Logic, the knowledge of all Vedas, the Tantras, worldly knowledge, and Raja Neeti are all yours. You are fully filled and are present everywhere in this world within and without your ideal, grandiose, or fierce forms. O Devi, who other than You could reside in the Heart of the Him who is the real form of all Yajyas, who is contemplated by all Gods and Yogis. O Devi, when you give up these entire Three Worlds, this entire creation goes to destruction, and then You Yourself choose to play with possibilities of an alternative world, compelled to give life another spin again and again through dozens of Kali Yugas. By your grace only, a person gets a Wife, Husband, daughter, son, house, family, prosperity, peace and friends. Those upon whom You, O Devi, bestow your kindness, they are so favored with good health, prosperity, safety, peace, and happiness. You are the Mother of these entire worlds, and the Goddess of Gods. Vishnu and You, O Mother, are present everywhere in this moving and unmoving creation. Please favor us with continued work, good health, wealth, home, farm, animals, enjoyables, clean water, and food. O Vishnu-Vaksha-Stal-Vaasini, help keep us Loving relations with our Wife, Husband, daughter, son, parents, family, spiritual community, alter-egos and friends. O Devi, Protect our valuables, books, tools, appliances, art, jewelry, personal belongings, and home life. O Pure One, your presence moves us to now celebrate purity, kindness, truthfulness, and goodness. You help us, O Devi, to become admirable, virtuous, brave, fortunate, full of goodness, and intelligent. O Devi, even Sri Brahma Ji is not capable of praising Your greatness. Thus, Maha Devi Lakshmi, may You be satisfied with us and don’t ever leave us.

Prayers to Inanna, the Queen of Heaven

Mighty, majestic, and radiant, You shine brilliantly in the evening, You brighten the day at dawn, You stand in the heavens like the sun and the moon, Your wonders are known both above and below, To the greatness of the Holy Priestess of Heaven, To you, Inanna, I sing! I say, “Hail!” to the Holy One who appears in the heavens! I say, “Hail!” to the Holy Priestess of Heaven! I say, “Hail!” to Inanna, Great Lady of Heaven! Holy Torch! You fill the sky with light! You brighten the day at dawn! I say, “Hail!” to Inanna, Great Lady of Heaven! Awesome Lady of the Annuna Gods! Crowned with great horns, You fill the heavens and earth with light! I say, “Hail!” to Inanna, First Daughter of the Moon! Mighty, majestic, and radiant, You shine brilliantly in the evening, You brighten the day at dawn, You stand in the heavens like the sun and the moon, Your wonders are known both above and below, To the greatness of the Holy Priestess of Heaven, To you, Inanna, I sing!

Hail Mary

Hail, Mary, full of grace! The Lord is with Thee. Blessed art Thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of Thy womb, Jesus. Holy, Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Hail Holy Queen

Hail, Holy Queen, Mother of mercy, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus. O clement, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Amen.

Orphic Hymn to Gaia

Oh Goddess, Source of Gods and Mortals, All-Fertile, All-Destroying Gaia, Mother of All, Who brings forth the bounteous fruits and flowers, All variety, Maiden who anchors the eternal world in our own, Immortal, Blessed, crowned with every grace, Deep bosomed Earth, sweet plains and fields fragrant grasses in the nurturing rains, Around you fly the beauteous stars, eternal and divine, Come, Blessed Goddess, and hear the prayers of Your children, And make the increase of the fruits and grains your constant care, With the fertile seasons Your handmaidens, Draw near, and bless your supplicants.

Divine Feminine Prayer, by

Mother of the Light, may you reign as a Goddess of Wisdom within my soul. Be present for me now and in every moment of eternity. Take my hand and lead me to the Birthing Light of God within me, for there shall I find my purpose in life revealed. Mother, greet me at the door, embrace me in your loving countenance and smile gently upon me. As your lost child, give me assurance that your grace is with me always. All streams spring from the font of your heart. Your eyes shine as the blue sea into my heart, and you forever find me worthy of your love. In the spirit of this revelation, I offer to reveal myself fully to you, who is my Divine Feminine being, at all times and in all ways. Amen.

Enlightenment

Enlightenment is like the moon reflected on the water. The moon does not get wet, nor is the water broken. Although its light is wide and great, The moon is reflected even in a puddle an inch wide. The whole moon and the entire sky Are reflected in one dewdrop on the grass. - Dogen

Prayer

Harmony We reverently pray for eternal harmony in the universe. May the weather be seasonable, May the harvest be fruitful, May countries exist in harmony, And may all people enjoy happiness.

Giving To Those In Need

May I become at all times, both now and forever A protector for those without protection A guide for those who have lost their way A ship for those with oceans to cross A bridge for those with rivers to cross A sanctuary for those in danger A lamp for those without light A place of refuge for those who lack shelter And a servant to all in need. - Tenzin Gyatso

Offering the Peace

With Every Breath With every breath I take today, I vow to be awake; And every step I take, I vow to take with a grateful heart. So I may see with eyes of love Into the hearts of all I meet, To ease their burden when I can And touch them with a smile of peace.

Being Peace

If we are peaceful, If we are happy, We can smile and blossom like a flower. And everyone in our family, Our entire society, Will benefit From our peace. -

Thought for the day

As you search diligently, you will surely find what you are looking for, your at-one-ment with Me, the Source of all life. But you have to take time to search. It is something that will not drop into your lap without the deep desire in you to know Me, to know the truth, and to seek until you find what it means to you. This deep spiritual experience of inner knowing only comes to those souls who wants to know; therefore never dabble vaguely in these spiritual experiences. It is up to you to go forth and experience it within. How completely empty and futile life is until you start living you start living it to the full and putting everything to the test to see whether spiritual life is practica; and worth living! Start now doing something about it. Let there be no armchair spirituality. Let it be living and vibrating and there for all to see. Let Me see you start living a life now.

Thought of the day

Friends

Obstacles

Ripples

6th May 2021

Angel Numbers

Loves in colour

Yin and yang

Gayatri Mantra

Anahata chakra

Lotus

Rain Dance

Rain dance is a ritual that is performed in Native American cultures to invoke rain. It is commonly seen among the Zuni tribe and is performed by wearing feathers and turquoise or blue items. 

Icarus and the Sun

Knowledge

Knowledge

Spirit Animals

Second Chance

Meera and Akash enjoyed the time they got to chat with each other. It was a second chance for both of them and in a world where divorce is still viewed with suspicion, they were divorced and their children were with their respective spouses. Theirs was a casual acquaintance on facebook that led to friendship.

Chance brought them together and the moment they started speaking to each other, both of them felt comfortable after a long time. For a while, the old scars were forgotten and both of them felt happy being friends. It was on Friendship Day in August that Akash recognized how much they were more than friends. At twelve midnight, he stayed on chat so that he could be with Meera and she seemed quite happy with him around. They chatted till early morning and they shared their apprehensions about love and being in a relationship again.

My roots strangely

I belong only to you, my dream.

I dont belong to my place that left as a child.

I do not belong to my father's family since its all dead and gone, with a few bones scattered in a churchyard long and far away,

I do not belong to the place where I grew up,

Beside the River Green, my mother's family

Where it was always fun to be playing in water,

Yet too scary to belong,

For there were rightful inheritors,

More rightful than us.

Nor do I belong to a family which calls me my own,

Though the blood that runs through my veins is hardly theirs,

Nor do I belong to them who call me by a sweet name,

They do not know me at all, am a familiar stranger,

That nods and smiles and passes them by.

Its only you who know me, my love

My feminine spirit and tenderness,

My occasional clownishness in trying to belong,

To some name, some family, some tribe,

Where I do not belong.

You are where I belong, in the melting down of the barriers between you and me, 

and the all engulfing tenderness that follows,

That is the space where I see myself,

As yours having a name and being other than all these illusions.

A Process for creating my own reality

I connect with the Creative Source of the Universe-while I maintain this connection every word that speak becomes a creative truth. 

My intention with this process is for me to bring into my current reality the abilities, the ideas and guidance to bring me into alignment with my best possible outcome. 

I go back into the past, my soul knows exactly when, to just before the very first time that I believed that I was limited in the scope of my life experiences, and I make a different choice. I will not allow the limitations to hinder me, instead I choose and accept my unlimited potential in creating my own reality. This releases me to become the best possible version of myself. I am filled with gratitude and anticipation for all the opportunities now available to me. 

Source: Unknown

Yellow song bird

She was born on a rainy afternoon. People came to see her cursing their bad luck. Rain brought good yield and was a blessing for the soil, but wasn't it unlucky for a child to be born during day? The Little yellow bird smiled never guessing how the bird clan welcomed her. Even her mother thought she was unlucky for the very knowledge of her being was a pain to her mother. One day the baby would grow up and ask her mother, "If I were a pain to you, why didn't you kill me?"

But she knew her father would never kill her. He loved her fondly and named her a lucky name selected with care. Her mother believed that the name was unlucky too and screamed at her father. She was proved right when within an year he died. He came home one day complaining of body ache and died within a few days. May be he died on a rainy day too, the baby thought. She never heard of him except on rare occasions and that made her cry.

The bird clan always treated her as different. She was unlucky, they said. "Killed her father", they would whisper to their children. So one day she was taken home by her grandparents who belonged to another clan. Her roots remained there but she had to go. So she took with her the only heirloom, a feather belonging to her father.

The new life in the new clan wasn't very exciting. Everyday people would pass by and remark, "oh, this is the little unlucky bird" and she would stare at them with her big eyes. But as she grew up she learnt how to be happy but no one liked her being happy. "She's so happy; let's take away from her happiness". So her precious toys were given to poor children, her beautiful clothes to those who had none, her books to those who could not afford books. For a while she cried and protested but then giving became her nature. She held on to nothing- the past she frittered away, her books she gave away, her jewels and gifts she shared.

The bird clan expected only giving from her because one day like her father she would die too. They expected her to exist for them and then die. Whatever she did was treated with contempt and disdain. Others praised their children before her. Fathers sang praises of their children's small achievements and she had none to say anything good about her. Everyone talked about how ugly she looked and how she would sit still without saying anything.

Then one day a traveller came who heard her singing to herself and wondered at the softness of her voice and her flair for music. He took her with him and taught her music. The others in the clan stood and said " Now what bad luck will she bring him?". After a month he went away but the fire he had stirred in her heart remained. So she learnt how to fly just to be alone and practise her music. Never did she sang before those in her clan. Yet the trees, the night and the stars became her friends, who listened and praised her songs.

Soon other birds listened too and praised her flair for music but her own clan would say with certainty that it was all nonsense. So one day when a great musician praised her, the clan leader put her in a cage and kept two birds to guard her. She asked herself, "what have I done in my life to deserve so much of torment , contempt from other people and sadness?" She sat and cried. Why didn't my mother kill me? why? why? She sat in the cold rain, who tried to soothe her with its icy fingers. She would sit and shudder as the warmth in her decreased day by day.

One day the traveller saw her in his dreams and thought "Let me go and see what she do with the music that I taught her". When he reached the cage, he saw her sitting still with her eyes closed. When he called her by her name, there was no response. By the time he had opened the cage and touched her wings, her wings were frozen and dead. It was still raining as if she was in the realm of clouds singing along with them another melody.

The Rhythm of Rain

It was a rainy day. I was standing there near the entrance of the college, completely drenched and shivering with cold, waiting for the rain to stop so that I could go home and rest idly on my warm and cozy bed listening to the soft and enchanting music that the pelting raindrops made outside. But the rain showed no signs of stopping. THe whole verdant canopy was adorned with jewels like a modest bride. 

I was awakened from my rambling thoughts by a young girl with an umbrella. She understood from my face that I hadn't her question. She invited me to join her till the bus-stop. Though, I hesitated her friendly smile reassured dared my mind and I joined her in her little world. 

The moment she began to speak I labelled her as a "qualified chatterbox". The distance we had to cover stretched before us...farther had we had realised then. She was short and petite with the look of an innocent child. But what struck me most was the trace of wildness flickering in her eyes whenever she spoke enthusiastically of something. The rain had stopped but we seemed to be in no mood to depart. But we had to. She went away smiling while I stood thanking her kindness. I reached home in a trance. 

I began weaving dreams around her. Her piercing eyes with a wild look...they haunted me...throughout my sleep and my waking hours. I decided in my mind to see her every day. But then what? Will she refuse me? I tried in vain to discourage my eager heart by making her only an acquaintance met by chance, who may become a friend later, but not my love. Still I found consolation in despair. 

By some kind of an intuition I knew she would be there next day at the same spot. As I thought, she was there. As there was no rain I got no chance for accidental jostlings but still I was happy. I wondered how beautiful it would be if we shared an umbrella of life, a life of laughter and tears? Then with an ache I thought how a jobless youth like me unable to support himself would think of marriage?

Our walk became a habit for us. Talking trivia and enjoying life. I found myself borrowing her ideas and catchwords, her enthusiasm and even her philosophy of life. I read with ardour not my books but her. Every feature on her face I studied with close attention. Especially her eyes which had a keen gaze and her smiles for different occasions. Though she was not stunningly gorgeous, her enthusiasm and cheerfulness added bounce to her features and mobilised her face into a beautiful sight. To me, the most cherishable part in her was her sympathetic self that went out in pity foreveryone and everything in distress. A day for me ended at the bus-stop with her departure,

One day she remained agitated and remained silent and unresponsive. As we walked together that her parents wanted to marry her off to someone working abroad and had settled the union without even asking her approval. Her dreams of an academic career and economic as well as individual freedom were strangled in silence. 

Though her heart was breaking, her voice choked with tears and eyes brimming, she controlled her tears. As we parted, I thought her eyes had a lost "look". What had she lost? Was it really her dreams? Or...was it me? What prevented her from saying that she loved me?

That night I kept thinking of that tear that did not fall. It was for me...it was for me...my heart kept telling me. But alas? She had not said a word. 

Two days later she came to our favourite spot walking in the rain. Raindrops were trickling all over her.She tried to smile  and gave an enthusiastic talk on her love for rain. The raindrops racing down her cheeks made me think that there may be tears in them too. 

We rambled through our familiar path. I found her shivering with cold. My wild heart wanted to put my arms round her protecting her from the cold and the rain, to hold her close to my heart, to kiss her and to make her mine. With much exertion, I reminded myself that she was betrothed to another and I controlled myself. 

As if she was reading my thoughts she turned and fixed her enquiring glance upon me. We stood there face to face. She moving my heart with her pleading eyes..to change her life. To my surprise, she caught my arm and placed it against her cheek. I felt a tear on my hand. I turned her towards me and gently kissed her on the forehead.She smiled through her tears and rested her head against my chest. I ran my fingers all over her face and kissed it myriad times. We departed in silent jubilation. I was ecstatic with the thought that I was worth her love. 

For some days she didn't come to college. Then a friend informed that she is in the hospital with high fever. But the tidings that came next shattered me completely. She, whom I loved more than myself, the throb of my heart was dead. After suffering for a week she quietly slipped away in her sleep. My qualified chatterbox. 

I couldn't bear the thought of seeing her lifeless...without that wildness flickering in her eyes...I denied myself that torture. But just as in the fairy tales I thought won't I be able to rouse her from the sleep of death by planting a kiss of true love upon on her cold lips?

Now, it's raining outside. Nature dressed  up like a bride is waiting for her beloved, and I think somewhere in time she may be waiting for me too, with a pleading look in her eyes. Though she is gone from the world, I feel her living in me as my life-throb. Whatever I may do, I won't sleep this night, for a pair of eyes with a wild glitter in them will sing to me, new joys of love, till I wake for her from the dream of life. 

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