Monday, March 10, 2025
Daily
Beannacht: A Blessing for the New Year
Thursday, March 06, 2025
Rebus Writing
I really miss the days when people texted more than Yes, No, ok, and what? and abbreviations and short forms than send meaningful long sentences, properly capitalised, spelt and spaced meaningfully. May be you might think that I am a purist but this craving exists to get a well written letter or a handwritten page.
I remember there were friends who could match wit with wit, anger with anger and repartee with repartee, all in matter of seconds and you could roll in laughter at the words they said. You look with nostalgia at the SMSes that could make your day.
I really miss those texts in words, invites, reminders, emails and missing you messages not the rebus that you read these days. I think want2cu2moro is good enough but I think might like a longer text that goes: I missed you a lot today, my dear and want to see you tomorrow. Please stand near the tabeubia tree where we usually meet.
Rain Raga
Beneath the banyan tree, a woman sat singing some ragas. She was singing in her melodious voice some songs that invited the monsoons. The land was dried up and the sky devoid of any trace of rain and the people draped in cottons gathered around with the sun scorching their brown skins.
The ragas reverberated in the
blazing summers and were offered to the gods of the sky and the wind and the
people remembered all the occasions when the land was blessed with rain in the scorching
summer season. The children from the village played by the dried up temple
pond, thinking of the days where they splashed in the cool water, sat idly in
the cool recesses of the rocks, or sat chattering with the juice of ripe
mangoes oozing on their hands and faces.
The singer went on singing and
the people listened to the songs that praised the advent of the rains: oh you
rain; much awaited the boon of heavens that brings joy to the earth, solace to
the people, oh you rain, come with thunder and lightning and soak our brown
skins with delight. Oh rain, the fulfilment of forecasts and incessant prayers,
I invoke you in the names of the barren earth, the dried up rivers and lakes,
the animals and birds, the silent trees and the people on earth.
The rains were invoked to end
the blazing afternoons of summer heat with the first drops of summer rain and
you set the warm smell of earth rising and you bedeck trees with jewels like
brides, from furnace hot afternoons to nights of restless pace. It is for the rains,
incense is burnt and prayers chanted and it is for you, the comforter on hot
summer days. The land and the people waited for the comfort offered by the
summer rains. However, the singer went on crooning the rain songs and soon and
suddenly a wind blew over the land. The trees began to sway with the gust of
wind and grey clouds rose to silhouette the sky with hints of a sudden
outburst.
Then it started raining
heavily. With the advent of the rain clouds, the entire city rejoiced as the
wait was over. The days of drought are finally over and the soft rain pelted
over the crowd with bolts of thunder and lightning. The people received in open
hands stretched to skies what the heavens granted as comfort from the scorching
heat of Indian summer. The rain fell over the land and the people danced in the
rain with the beaming children screaming with delight when the droplets of rain
drenched their brown bodies. The singer sat drenched still humming the megh malhar raga.
Monday, February 17, 2025
Desire
You have been my home and my solace in times of trouble. It is with you that I learnt how to travel in a magical land of dreams. Though we have never been together in life, it is in this world that I run to you, whenever your thoughts come to my mind. Throughout the years, I have missed you so many times but more than that I would like to tell you that I have never forgotten you even for a day.
We have wandered through this life in many lands and drank deep from desire. Your gaze pulls me closer and I am jolted into a whirlpool of desire. I give my everything to you getting carried away by the moment. Your eyes sing melodies that has always lured mermaids from every land and brought them to you without fail.
Your words pull me to you and I dream about our moments of togetherness like eating a candy in secrecy. Your passion is something that gives me more to dream of and I watch you sleep soundly after this bout of lovemaking. You look peaceful like a small baby and that comforts my soul.
We wander in green fields watching the dew on the blades of grass and drinking from words and from silence. We watch the sudden downpour that drenches us and celebrate nature and our moments of togetherness. Though miles away, we are together in thoughts and dreams. Everyday our wanderings across time and space are marked by the stories we tell and the places we inhabit.
The Unsent Letters
Saturday, February 15, 2025
The Unsent Letters
Dear Sean
Do you remember how you had given me a CD of popular songs and soon they became my favourites as well. It was your way of making people happy that made you a favourite among them. I was smitten by your charm and what was missing after you were gone was your ways of making one feel special.
The OSTs from popular movies were my favourites- be it Titanic or Armageddon or Robinhood. Our world revolved around discussions about books, films and music. This year, as I am making a playlist memories of our candid chats pop up before me and once again I feel happy to have met you though we lost touch somewhere along the way. This year, I will create a playlist for you so that you will get a chance to listen to my favourites and croon them in your melodious way.
Love
Berry
Thursday, February 13, 2025
Daily
My heart has always yearned to explore the world with you by my side-to wander through uncharted lands, to discover hidden gems of beauty and to find beauty in the simplest of things. I have always dreamed of waking up next to you by my side and watch the streak of dawn across the sky.
One of my deepest desires is to visit my ancestral home near the River Green, to witness the majestic snakeboats gliding effortlessly across the water during the Onam festival. I long to feel the cool water envelop me, to laugh like a carefree child, and to relive the joy of my childhood.
I also hope to visit the old graveyard where my loved ones rest, to pay my respects to those who have passed on, and to remember the stories of their lives. Perhaps, in the silence of the graveyard, I will find a glimpse of the love and beauty that has been lost with time.
My dreams are not just about places and experiences, but also about the emotions and connections that make life worth living. I yearn to find love again, to rediscover the beauty that has faded with time, and to relearn the art of smiling like a child, with abandon and joy.
And, maybe, I'll find the courage to wear a spot of sindhoor on my forehead, like a newly wed woman, with pride and happiness in my heart. To feel the warmth of love and connection, to know that I am cherished and to radiate joy and contentment.
Us
Masks
You and me have worn many masks with each other. Any other woman would leap and violently tear that mask of silence off your face. But I watch in silence, everyday, how far will you carry the game. You will only smile and say the same words of courtesy. But when your silence is broken by hoarse laughter that sounds so hollow, all my anger disappears and I find you the same as ever, childish and ever trying to hide your insecurity in being aloof and in being funny. After finding out how you feel, I see that I try to do the same with you.
Wednesday, February 12, 2025
Déjà vu
The place looks
familiar to me though I have come here for the first time. It's
as if you've been here before, though you know you haven't. The scene before
you is like a dream, one that you've had before, but can't quite remember.
As you stand there, lost in the tranquility of the moment, you start to wonder if the waves might hold some secrets, some whispers of the past that could reveal the truth about your connection to this place. Maybe, just maybe, if you stay a while longer, the waves will tell you the story of how you could hear the song of a home.
You feel a sense of longing, a yearning to know more about this place, about the person whose home might be this place. You're so caught up in the trance of the blue waters that you barely notice the stranger smiling at you, their eyes crinkling at the corners as they take in the sight of you, lost in thought.
For a moment, you wonder if this stranger might be the answer to the questions that have been in your mind. Maybe they're the one who can tell you more about this place and about the song that's been echoing in your heart.
Maybe the answer lies within you, in the depths of your own heart, where the memories of your dreams and the longings of your soul reside.
Us
Wednesday, February 05, 2025
Thursday, January 23, 2025
The Unsent Letters
Dear Sean
Your thought crossed my mind when I heard a song that you love.Then, I remembered how throughout the years, I have mourned your absence though I have never tried talking to you at all. I think I should made an attempt because staying in touch might have brought down the anguish that I experience in my life. I run through the young years and tell myself how blessed I am, to have met you and tasted of love though we were never lucky enough to be together in this life. But in an alternate universe created by my longing, you have never been away from me but has been my constant source of solace.
Love
Berry
Wednesday, January 22, 2025
The Unsent Letters
Dear Sean
If you ask me what will you do given the same crossroads, I will give the answer that I will do everything differently, take a risk for you and will give everything just to get you I'm life. You will be my top priority and I will not think twice about it. For every day, this heart has longed for nothing but your return and I will never think twice before picking you from the choices that I am given in any life.
Love
Berry
Sunday, January 19, 2025
Monday, January 13, 2025
handpicked
Sunday, January 12, 2025
The Unsent Letters
Dear Sean,
I remember the first letter you wrote me like it was yesterday. The way you wove a story around our bond, which was surprising as it had left me wondering if it was just a tale or a glimpse into the magic that existed between us. I recall the spark in your eyes when I asked if the story was about us, and the shy smile that spoke volumes about your feelings.
As I read your words now, I'm taken back to that moment, and I'm filled with a sense of nostalgia and longing. The texture and appearance of the notebook paper may be etched in your memory, but for me, it's the emotions and thoughts that you poured onto those pages that have stayed with me. Your letter was more than just a story; it was a declaration of the connection we shared, a connection that has only grown stronger with time.
I'm grateful for the countless letters, stories, and poems that have followed- each one a testament to the love and affection that we share. In a world, where time and circumstance can sometimes pull us apart, your words have been a constant reminder of the bond that we created long back. I still cherish the memories we created, and though apart, how the memories bring back a love story full of unconditional love for each other.
With all my love,
Berry